Well, hello. To say it’s been a while kind of feels like an understatement. So much has happened since my last post, that I’m not even going to try jotting them all down; I just have something I need to get off my chest. I’ve missed being able to put my thoughts out there, especially now that I’m feeling a lot of … well, feelings.
Let’s start with a big one: I graduated from our training program last December and am now a fully-fledged cabin crew (I’m yet to get regularized, though, so not quite as fully-fledged yet pala). Yay! I’ve been flying for two months and a few days now, and it’s been quite a ride. There have been lovely moments, and there have been … unforgettable ones. My first official international flight—the flight that was supposed to welcome and excite idealistic newbie me—ended up being probably (and hopefully, Jesus, because I cannot endure another incident of similar nature) my career worst. I’m not going to talk about it in detail because frankly, I’m tired of this story, even though it keeps haunting me.
I’ve found in my two months of exposure to the real world, to so many different people, that kindness is incredibly underrated. Not everyone chooses to be (and that’s mind-boggling to me, because it’s not that hard to not be an awful human being). It really is a cruel world out there, and I’m frankly sad and disappointed by what I’ve seen so far, but at the same time I’m thankful that I’m slowly learning to be strong because of it (I’m a sensitive, emotional person, so it’s going to take a while to fully be immune to encounters with negative people, but I’m getting there). Because of my experiences so far, I’ve learned to appreciate more when people are kind to one another. To appreciate the people who have your back. To appreciate people who choose to lift you up instead of pull you down.
I realized that there are going to be people who will try to twist truths, to steal your dream away from you, and just days ago I wanted to succumb to that and quit, but you know what… I won’t. Not yet. Not for as long as I could. I’m here to see the world. Its beauty, not its cruelty. And despite seeing so much of the bad, I’ve seen a lot of the good, too. And from here on out I’m choosing to focus on that. 🙂
PS. My external hard drive with all my old photos died—so I can’t really post about my previous travels anymore 😭
PPS. The good news is I’ve been able to travel a lot so I should have some new posts coming 💖 Time to bring this baby back to life!
PPPS. I just published my old post about my journey to the skies here if you’re interested x
PPPPS. I tried to vlog. (Keyword tried.) Haha. Hop on over here for a peek at what I saw in Sydney!